DON'T

Don't tell me that you understand,
Don't tell me that you know
Don't tell me that I will surely survive,
How I will surely grow

Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest

Don't come at me with answers,
That can only come from me
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free

Don't stand in pious judgement,
Of the bonds that I must untie
Don't tell me how to suffer,
And don't tell me how to cry
My life is filled with selfishness,
My pain is all I see
But I need you, I need your love,
Unconditionally

Accept me in my up's and down's,
I need someone to share
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, My friend, I care

Author Unknown

REMEMBERING

Go ahead and mention my child,
The one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further.
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry.
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine"
But healing is something ongoing.
I feel it will take a lifetime.
Written by Elizabeth Dent

This appeared in the morning paper and I wanted to include it in my homepage for my boys. I have felt this way for a long time and I wish people wouldn't be so scared to mention my boy's names.

A LETTER TO MOMMY
Mommy please do not cry
For we have not truly died
We can feel the love in your heart
But for now we have to be apart
Someday we again will be joined
But until then please do not mourn
I know the dreams you had for me
We are sorry we could not be with thee
If only you saw the beauty we can see
I know you would be happy for me
As you struggle with each day
We are comforted to know you will find the way
Happiness again will be in your day
Although we cannot tell you when
But please remember until then
We will remain close to you
So, please try to be happy in what you do
For we are truly happy here watching over you
Please remember us with a smile
Knowing we will be together in awhile
We didn't have much time to share
But we know how much you really do care
We feel your love for us grow
We are so sorry we had to go
But Mommy please know
When you are called home
We will be there
So please do not fear
When we are together again
We will show you our angel friends
But please try to be happy until then
For we are in a beautiful place
With no more pain to face.
We now must go and play
But please know with each passing day
We will be closer to when
We are together again
But until then
we will always love you so. Love Tyler and Connor

This was written by me early one morning when I was unable to sleep.

STILLBORN

I carried you in hope,
The long nine months of my term,
Remembered that close hour when we made you,
Often felt you kick and move
As slowly you grew within me,
Wondered what you would look like
When your wet head emerged,
Girl or boy, and at what glad moment
I should hear your birth cry,
And I welcoming you
With all you needed of warmth and food;
We had a home waiting for you.
After my strong laboring,
Sweat cold on my limbs,
My small cries merging with the summer air,
You did not breathe.
We had not expected this;
It seems your birth had no meaning,
Or had you rejected us?
They will say that you did not live,
Register you as stillborn.
But you lived for me all that time
In the dark chamber of my womb,
And when I think of you now,
Perfect in your little death,
I know that for me you are born still;
I shall carry you with me forever,
My child, you were always mine,
You are mine now.
Death and life are the same mysteries.

Written by Leonard Clark. Found in When Hello Means Goodbye