My Testimony
Anyway, I had finally reached my teens. I had gone to a
private school run by our "Light of the World Community"since
the 3rd grade. When that started crumbling, so did the school and
I was forced to go to Public School with no knowledge of what
to expect on the outside. I realized after serious turmoil that the
"world" wasn't as bad as they had told me and that I had to exist
in it like everyone else. So I began to learn more about it. I didn't
do drugs or anything like that. But, after the age of 19, I just
wanted out and as far away from religion, "those" people and
God as I could get. He was after all a horrible, mean, vengeful
God . At least that was the childish impression I came away with
after all of those years.
So I joined a lounge band and
began my quest to become a star.
For once I wanted my voice to be
heard. I wanted everyone to
know who I was and I wanted
as much money as I could get
my hands on. You know , the old
Fame and Fortune story. For
reasons that were very valid to
me, I became very promiscuous
and I drank an average
share of alchohol. As far as my parents
were concerned , I
was a lost soul and not worth their time.
I had made my bed and now I must
lay in it, Isn't that the saying?
Years went by and nothing I did
was ever successful. I became
involved with an emotionally abusive
man who shared himself
with other women. I started to
wonder? What the heck am I here
for? Years went by and nothing
I did was ever successful. What
was my purpose on this earth? I
could sing well. But, I couldn't
seem to get past the slimeballs
wanting to take advantage of me.
So I gave up, after 8 years of
trying. That was my dream...
...now what?
My husband and I had known each other for many years through
music. He was a musician and I a singer in the same band. We
hadn't talked in years. But God had already started working in
my life and I didn't even know it! I was given an ultimatum by
the boyfriend, when he realized I was seeing the man who would
eventually ask for my hand in marriage. (This is where God really
made his presence known to me) My best friend just happened
to show up from out of town that exact night. She and I talked
for hours about the choice I had to make before 7:00 am when
he would return for my answer. God used her to open my eyes
to the fact that he was a drug addict and no good for me. I
made the hardest decision of my life that night and God was
able to begin REALLY working in my life. With the choice I
made that night God gave me EVERYTHING I ever wanted.
ALL of the things the world can't give.