I see the fear in his eyes.  It pains me a bit...hurts to see him like that.
 But it also arouse me, makes me want to take him right there.  I don't know
what to do....I'm so lost.

Why can't he tell me whats wrong?  Why?

Theres so many things that come to my mind as I have him in front of me.

Push him on the bed and fuck him sensless....Give him a brutal kiss...Tell
him what I feel.......But I'm scared...lost....I dont' know what he wants.
 He was fine earlier......I thought we getting to be comfortable with each
other, but I guess I was wrong.

What the hell does he want dammit!  Fuck it Taker...Speak to me....

I look at him straight in the eye,  "Mark, speak to me.  Show me what you're
really like?"

He looks at me, gives me a resign look, like he's about to tell me, my grip
lessons and then all of a sudden he pushes me away.

"No....I can't.....You wouldn't understand......"

"Then make me understand...."

He turns to me a weird look in his eyes, "Oh you make it sound so
simple...don't you?!  Make you understand...oh....show you.....Do you know
what I go through each and every fucking day with this....you don't
know......you don't understand....you'll never will...."

I'm taken back with this.  "Mark.....Dammit Mark...Tell me!"

He gives me one last glance before siting down on the bed, looking down at
his feets as he speaks. "Hunter....please....I....lets...just stop this......"

I shake my head and sit down next to him, "No...Taker...I'm not letting you
just end this.....This..what you...me...have is new....it's starting....let
it keep growing....don't end it.  And I want to understand..I want to know
you...the real Mark Calloway....."

He glances at me again under his eyelashes, "Really?"

I nod, "If you let me...."

He stands and walks toward the door, like he's about to leave.  My heart
stops, "Mark...please....."

He turns and leans on the door sliding down to the floor. "Hunter...I ...all
I.....Why do you want to know me?"

I blink at the question.  Why...why I want to know....Haven't you figured it
out....... "I want to know about you.....I want to help..."

"Help? Help?!  That's all.....You just want to help...." His voice rising
again.

"Mark..."

He stands and glares at me, "Don't Mark me.....I don't want OR" He stresses
that word a bit, before he continues, "...need your help..."

I back away at his words, I didn't expect this. I didn't know what to
say....I dont' know what he wants....I ah....damn!

"Mark calm down please...."

"No.....why don't you just go somewhere.....No better yet.....I'll leave....."

"Mark!  Will you just listen to me....."

"No...."

"But I dont' know what you want dammit....."

He looks at me as he pick up his keys and gives me a shaky smile, "You sure
don't...." ANd with that he opens the door and steps out closing it behind
hiom.

I glare at the door, trying to figure what the fuck just happened!  One
minute it seems everything was going just fine....and then the
next...Shitshitshit!!!.....

What am I going to do...he's mad at me....AND I don't know why....well maybe
I do...but then I don't.....I'm so lost....What does he want from
me.......Why can't he just tell me.....why.....